2019 / poetry / author
DILANTHA GUNAWARDANA
MARRIAGE STABLE
…
My clean shaven face was in supreme control,
slapped with Old Spice aftershave,
smelling as fresh as the dew at dawn,
or the fragrance of petrichor.
A broken pimple, oozing out pus,
while I get ready for the day. Old spice I am now,
42 years young, naughty by nature,
nice by how the hat fits a man who gleaned love
as summer flipped a page to autumn. A little
crease on a page, reminding me,
it is the season of germinating wrinkles.
While I look at my face, a masala of lines, dark spots
broken pimples, lips that have kissed only
one woman, very aware, of what I have missed out on,
and yet, holding my fort
convinced that monogamy
is a worthy sacrifice.
How I will never be too old,
for a clean shave. The lawn mover
I drag on a face, to make me presentable.
How I’m perishing now, stale, weary, wilting,
like an old record that gets played
on a gramophone, unaware,
that music is digitized now and yet, seeing
a large circular disk, revolve
around an axis, pushing a button
on a tender sweet spot.
How I sense defeat in everything
I do, and yet I subscribe
to the old fashioned; diaries, photo albums,
gramophones, pressed flowers, shoe boxes,
analog watches, and a cassette player that plays
old country hits, while I take an old record,
wipe it clean and slowly let a gramophone’s limb,
press against her top surface.
I hear, Jim Reeves sing, a song
that crowds my heart, with memories, and yet
lets out a streak of saudade.
I gaze at the record, go round
and round, like a carousal, knowing
that we jump on a horse called memory,
a hippocampus, that plays
a somewhat similar record. Little editions
of a joyride, of a once was summer,
while the bare back, of a hippocampus,
rests, just as savage and free,
as the mustang years, remembering
the watershed hour, when I prostrated,
to a lasso made of gold,
letting in, a saddle and a girth,
entering a stable that padlocks,
only from a latch on the inside.