ON BEING, “THE MAGICIAN’S GIRL WHO DOES NOT FLINCH"

Quoted from Sylvia Plath’s “The Bee Meeting”

(starring depression as a magician & me, as a girl all out of tricks)

gorge on this cognac-imbued

     sickled

          lemon

               sliver

               to palpitate back the husk of a spore-plucked pomegranate moon

     & days later seeds bloodletting the rind of my diaphragm will authenticate the chainsaw trick

there will be no applause

                              the audience too accustomed to this shtick-

                                                     until the chandelier of doves crescendo in their gouging

                                                      bloodflocked
                                                      &
                                                      lustflown


{now a standing vigil for this whistle-slain mythology-}

                                   on stage, he pleats himself into the shackles

                                                                           I wrangle out of every practice

                                        floats blindfolded in the basin of my smothering

                    a sixty second summary of my eternity

in this mockery of an apology;

forgiveness being the unacknowledged miracle, my crowd-pleasing hands

muster:                                                  

                                                                                                         I

                                                                                    cartograph

                                                                             his

                                                                      sworded

                                                        atonements

                                          into the flute

                            of my jugular

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only he’s a revolutionary now,

                  upgraded the Radium Girl to a gunfight-

                          wilting my innards into handkerchiefs culled from the viscera;

                                             tightroped me unto the rink of a shot glass,

                                                      scythed the flesh of its sacrum,

                                                                                                      just to coin me

                                                                                                                     fragile

                                                                                               (read: volatile.

                                                                                   read: paradoxical.

                                                                   read: glottal.) 

                                                   in reverse.

          the final act featuring rare indulgences in our own illusions of self-sterilization

          him:       d       i       s       s       a       p       p       e       a       r       i       n       g

me: an unbracketed hostess

me: replanting the daisies he uprooted from my chest

me: the fleeting interlude between a honeybee relinquishing its stinger & awaiting rupture

him: reappearing –
him: flickering himself home.


* Radium Girl is the name given to a stage illusion, that involves strapping down a female assistant with
restraints, into a cabinet box riddled with a series of slots and holes. The magician then inserts a plethora of blades and swords into the spaces, providing the illusion of puncturing the assistant.


C.A. SCHEHERAZADE embraces all the theatrics she inherited with the legacy of her name- the bibliomaniac insomnia, the trivia-binging compulsion & the incessant cycle of  simultaneously hoarding, and expunging words in the maelstroms she masquerades as poetry. Her poetry has previously been published in Figroot Press & her fickle muse can often be found wandering on tumblr.

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